Sunday, 1 May 2011

Queen of my castle


You spend too many sleepless nights thinking in what could have been different. Those butterfly effect moments, you know? All of us had some of those. Sometimes you notice, sometimes you don’t. And in less than a second you change your life forever. You spend too many sleepless nights thinking, just thinking… How good could you have been living a different life? Did you do enough? Did you do everything you should? And what if? How many times did you think of something started by this sentence: And what if…?

You think if you could have been a better daughter, you think if you could have been a better sister, a better girlfriend, a better friend… You go to bed too late and wake up too early and part of the time you’re awake and should be sleeping, you think. You regret, you cry, you feel sorry, you feel anxious. You can’t change what is done and yet… You think!

So the weekend arrives and you are tired, you feel sleepy, your back and your head hurts. And you want to stay at home watching films. Filling your mind with fiction so you don’t have to think as much as usual. You just want to rest.

And then you struggle. Sometimes everything looks so clear to you, so clear that you just wish to write everything down so you’ll never forget. You’re lucky, yes, you know you’re lucky. You are so lucky that you need to celebrate instead of staying home thinking over and over in something you can’t anticipate, you can’t solve, you can’t go back… And so you call the people you love, you put a little golden dress and heels too high for your feet and you leave.

I’m not talking about those friends who call you to go out, who call you because they want to meet a friend of yours, who call you because they want something they know they can’t have. I’m talking about friends. Those five or six you have in your life… And surrounded by those friends you know the ghosts won’t be with you that night.

Yes, it’s ok. It’s ok to go out and drink a bit more than supposed on a Friday night. It’s ok to fool around until the day rises because you spend too much time being serious, so you deserve once in a while to act like a fool. You deserve to dance until you feel so tired, because you get yourself tired during week working. It’s ok to hug your friends and pretend you are alone: You, your friends and the music. Because this might be another  butterfly effect moment and you don’t know… All you know is that tonight you decided not to think. Actually you did.

You thought: Tonight. Me and my people are kings and queens of this castle.

In the historic center of my city, Guimarães. Where I was Born. Where Portugal was born.

Details of my outfit for a long night....























Inside the palace where the party was: Paço dos Duques

With Bruno, my dear cousin.

I'm wearing:
Mango dress* Seaside shoes* Gucci Blazer* Tous clutch* Krikor Germany necklace

25 comments:

  1. Estavas lindissima! Gosteiii :)*

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  2. Não sabia que a Seaside fazia sapatos giros. :-P Deve ser só para mulheres. ;-)

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  3. Muitos Parabens!!!
    Estavas lindissima.

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  4. O vestido e lindo!!! Ficou-te muito bem!

    xx
    Luciana
    http://lucelove4fashion.blogspot.com/

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  5. Estavas uma LADY ... so sparkling :)

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  6. Linda :)
    Adorei os sapatos e o vestido ;))

    beijinhos

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  7. Super linda!O cabelo,a maquilhagem e o outfit!
    Primaste pela elegância e bom gosto!Bjs.

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  8. Gostei de tudo!! Mas babei especialmente pelo verniz da primeira foto!! (:

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  9. Uma rainha muito elegante!:)

    http://hiimab.blogspot.com

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  10. não desdenhando do look, devo dizer que adorei o texto. [lagrimita piquena no canto do olho ;)]

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  11. Carrot quando escrevo, faço-o para mim mas também o faço para pessoas como tu. Sem desdenhar os outros comentários que foram queridos e atenciosos tu foste a única que mencionaste o principal deste post: o texto. Obrigada!

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  12. revi me tanto no texto, mais que no look :p

    e acho que é por posts assim que vale a pena por cá andar nas blogolandias!

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  13. Adoro os sapatos, são muito giros.
    Gostei do blog ;)
    Bjs

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  14. "What if?" Nem por isso. Arrepende-te do que fizeste, nunca do que deixaste de fazer. Dizia-me uma amiga há mts anos atrás e adoptei essa forma de estar também para a minha vida. Mudar a vida? Sempre, para melhor. E fazer sempre algo nesse sentido. Porque não sou comodista nem conformista. E também tens razão: não acredito em ter mais que uma mão cheia de amigos, daqueles AMIGOS.

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  15. ahhh! eu sou tao assim....pensar, pensar, e se...e...ahhh! E estavas linda, uma princesa do castelo de uma das cidades + lindas de portugal! e o teu primo se fosse + velho era perfect para a cenoura!!! muahahah

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  16. =) Hella o meu primo é mais velho do que cenoira só que já tem a cenourinha dele!

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  17. Adorei :)

    O vestido fica-te muito bem :)

    Kiss,
    sara

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  18. Que palavras bonitas... Adorei o teu texto e BTW o teu look tb ;)

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  19. agora que reparo no comment da hella, ca treta é essa de me andarem a arranjar par?! :p

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  20. Hahaha =) Eu já tenho um GDBiano reservado para ti ;)

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  21. Li o outro post que remete para este, e gostei tanto de um como de outro. Tão verdadeiros, e fazem tanto sentido. As tuas palavras passam, certamente, pela cabeça de muitas/os nós. Há quem se questione "e se, e se..?" e há quem "just let it go", mas por vezes esses "ses" levam-nos a reagir e a procurar sempre o melhor, o que nos faz sorrir, seja com esses 6 amigos, seja sem companhia, mas com a certeza que a inércia é para ser posta de parte.

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    1. Sem dúvida. É exactamente isso que penso. Obrigada por teres perdido o teu tempo a ler-me e comentar-me. Assim vale a pena ;)

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